and I trust You to lead me on. / 要与你同行哦主。引导我生命；一生跟随你。

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

A song of comfort to me now.. will upload the song when i do FIND it..

You Are So Faithful - written by Greg Gulley & Lenny Leblanc
Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful, Lord you are faithful
Like the rain that You send and every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring
You are so faithful, Lord You are faithful
Like the life that You give to every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see a cross and the price You had to pay
I see the blood that washes my sins away

And in the midst of a storm through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful
And when the stars refuse to shine and time is no more
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful
My Lord

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*walked together with God » 4:56 pm

How ironic
I sent an email out to THEM, telling THEM bout how i feel and everything, as a way of communication kind of thing.. and sms-ed them to check their email

In the end? What happen? SHE was like..
"Did you see the situation before sending out the sms to see if we are at the computer?"
I do not expect you to check it immediately.. It's just to let you know that there is something there for you, from me"

"Did you know that he was preapring to do something really important and there came ur sms?"
Common' how in the world do i know what is gonna happen??!!

I don't want to blame anyone, but just that I'm TRYING to communicate here and you're like "Is it the right way? YOU think lor, YOU think what.."

Im trying really hard here to salvage the situation, trying to pull myself up, to drag myself out of the shit hole.. and den... EVERYTHING comes tumbling down again.. impossibility

Thank God for Unc David.. Really.. Rushed from work place to comfort me and well, i have a good listening ear and someone who explained the situation to me, from his point of view and as a parent... He did not judge me nor them, which i feel, is a plus point as he could see where the situation coming from.. Thanks loads!

I'll definately try to work out something and NOT let go of God

IllbeprayingforEVERYTHINGthatitwillbeALRIGHT

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*walked together with God » 4:14 pm

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

just an add-on to the previous post>>>>>

wadeva that i have rambled is just a compilation of MY thots and MY frustrations.
just bit of me pouring out my emos..
I don't want ANYBODY and EVERYBODY who knows who i'm talking about to pass a judgement based on what ive said.. on ANYTHING and ANYONE..

what happened is between me and my family and such and it has NOTHING to do with ministry and church people and stuff.. i'm PERFECTLY alright with things at church..

its just that i need time off to refocus and to think of where i'm heading to and what i'm gonna do to my life, as well as to get back to the path of having that
closeness with HIM..

i guess that HE got misplaced somewhere
or rather, i think,
i misplaced HIM somewhere.. oh dear me..

so, to those who are concerned bout and with me, i'm cooping well..
just picking up from where i dropped off, to resume my life..

imfindingbackthelovethativemisplaced

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*walked together with God » 3:40 pm

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Why can't people see that it's a BIG issue for me to be a PK?
its not easy life..

people look up to you..
judge you..
compare you..
Cant do this, cant do that..

Wad the hell?! It's not as though i want it OK!
Having to keep up the GOOD IMAGE just to keep ~~your~~ pretty face or people will start asking!
SCREW IT!

im not one who will blast out my opinions out in the open, least on my blog.
Sorry! It's been held on too long for my comfort..

SO WHAT if you've given EVERYTHING deemed fit for me?!
SO WHAT if you give me a laptop to let me not give an excuse not to complete my degree?!
SO WHAT if i live in too much of a comfort ZONE?! CRAP!

I DON'T GIVE a DAMN! NOT A SINGLE DAMN!

FINE! ~~You~~ loaned a sum from the bank to finance my studies! BUT still, i really cannot cope!! CANNOT COPE do you understand me? Telling me that ~~you~~ got to loan it and pressurssing me to complete my studies and "dun even think about failing" is HARD on ME!! FINE! ~~you~~ got to repay the loan, hard on you. BIG DEAL! Can ~~you~~ step into my shoes for once? LEAST, ill just pay ~~you~~ BACK ALL the amount!!
BIG DEAL! SO WHAT if im the only "NG" gg to have a degree? I dun care!

i REALLY don't know what i want to do for the future? What you expect me to do? LIE to ~~you~~ and just just blurt out something that might not be true even? DON'T FORCE ME!!

so much hurt given me for the past 23 years.. dun worry! ill save ~~your~~ pretty face and not blurt out to the whole world..

screaming into my face won't help me!
grabbing me won't help me!
"going" to church,
"taking communion" and "confessing my sins"
won't help me!
(i dun want to go to church for the sake of going OR for the sake of ~~your~~ pretty face and be a hypocrite, hanging a fake smile and "everythings seems to be alright")

Who can i talk to? Who can i confide to who can help me? Other people got people who they can talk to, people who are following up on them.. but me?
DK? sorry, but she'll prob tell OLH..
my brother? forget it..
her? i dun want her to carry my burdens.. *sorry..*

Im not running away.. i just need the time to cope..
all i want and need is your understanding.. your concern..

I wanna curl up somewhere and cry.. but my tears just wont fall out..

amievenlovedatall?
God, are YOU there, even at all?

SK, Thanks for being there for me, for being my listening ear.. appreciate it
DK, IF you're reading this, sorry..

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*walked together with God » 9:16 pm

SCREW my life!!

Sometimes i really ponder ~~why am i living at all..~~

Wad the hell!!

SCREW it!

am i loved even at all?

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*walked together with God » 1:24 am

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Meaning of the Bible

A father was approached by his small son, who told him proudly, "I know what the Bible means!" His father smiled and replied, "So, Son, what does the Bible mean?" That's easy, Daddy. It stands for Basic Information Before Leaving Earth!"

Cheers..

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*walked together with God » 11:25 am

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Hey people..
I've found a passage that is MOST interesting for all to read and figure out.. so, so ahead and copy those words in RED and den, well, find the 34 names of the Bible hidden in them.. All the best and don't give up so easily. If you want answers, feel free to ask me!

Good luck! =)

The 34 Hidden Books of The Bible

John once made some remarks about the hidden books of the Bible in this passage, and urged us to take up the test as proof of quick-wittedness in our genes. I suppose initially that it usually was a simple trick but the truth finally struck numbers of us that it was a most dubious job we had to cope terribly. We were looking so hard for facts and looking for revelations, but often a mere fluke was that what we needed and loud lamentations could be heard when we saw how those answers had been overlooked by miles. There would also be a few cases which might require judges to determine.Joe liked this search personally while others observed that this could lead to a chronic lesion to the brain, a humor taken with laughter. Now Joshua has already given up his pursuit and said that it would be better that he brews us some coffee and makes us some bread with jam, especially when Daniel supports him by reading a comic. A headstrong pal of ours, Timothy who has been laying on the mat, the withered face still shows persistence, is trying solo. “Monte Carlo may be far from Judea and Amazon from Suez, rationally you can still find them from the same map,” he muttered indignantly. He managed to get eighteen books, which is not too bad. I, ahead of him, figured twenty. Personally, a minimal achievement of fifteen would be satisfactory, and if there appears no further inspiration where one can get ideas from, answers will be provided. However, we do not encourage abandonment, for that will deprive one of a pastime which sets one’s mind in an exodus to a dimension full of imagination and surprises. So, attempt further, and make it enjoyable.

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*walked together with God » 2:43 pm

Monday, January 08, 2007

Went to Church earlier on in the day..
After the service, FLIGHTers had another photo taking session..
haha.. wonderful wonderful.. here are some of the photos..

Showing off our numbers

Everybody jump around in the HOUSE of GOD!! Artistic jumping by yurs truely.. soo cool rite?
And no, im not leaping over a hurdle..

the Blessed one
t0r

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*walked together with God » 1:33 am

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Hi people..
I have decided to change my blog skin..
"fought" hard with blogskin.com
to find the suitable replacement for my babyfeet

Oh well.. at least its done up..
~~*for now at least*~~
and i'm headed off to sleep.. =)

t0r

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*walked together with God » 3:36 am