Another chapter
2yrs 4mths of slogging under the sun, wind and rain is almost over.. counting down, its only 2 more days to ORD. The anticipation of ending my NS period is within my grasps and soon, my beloved pink IC will be in my hands once again.. Not that I would hold it to sleep.. or during showers.. =) The joy, the excitment of going to ORD.. where is it? Seems like it is so quiet.. so "nothing.." so empty.. There is not much into looking forward to finish my NS liability.. It's like. "Ohh.. ORD lor.. so? now what?" kind of feeling..
Why?
Is it cos' most of my buddies are long gone and that there are only a handful of us left? Or is it that I'm reluctant to leave the camp that I've grown so attached to? The platoon mates whom I've done duty with? The specs whom I can fool around with? Eu Fai whom I can have HTHT and prayers with? Or that certain WO who is often heard with the statement of, "I have 4 sons.. my eldest can do 12 chin-ups.." Or is it cos' of the so called "pretty" technicians in their navy blue jumpers or the pilots in their fancy Mazdas and Hondas? Or does it all boil down to just me, where I would miss doing my (Terry's say so one) so called garang high-ports at the Main gate in the early morning with a loud "Mornin' Sir!" ? Perhaps it's cos' I'll miss my bunk, with the soft sponge bed and old pillows?
So many reasons.. but there certainly has to be a sane rationale behind it, but I just can't put my mind to it.. It's all numb and it has caused a blankness in my brain.. My neurons are like sending endless messages, but none of it makes sense. Perhaps my brain cells are dying.. or..
May be, I'm just thinking too much..
Empty or not, rationale thinking or not, my life still has to go on.. at least, another chapter of my life is already wrtten and ready to be published. Other chapters have to be written to continue of my life's story.. of my journey into the unknown..
t0r
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Victor (t0r).
Enteredtheworld, 29/09.
Christian.
Tributor.
FLIGHTer [0].
Guitarist.
Bassist.
Drummer.
WorshipLeader.
Mimist.
EarlyChildhoodEducator.
*My Heart's deepest wishes*
* Grow closer to God each day
* Walk With Jesus Daily
* Be A DOG
* Share the Gospel
* External Family to receive God as personal Saviour
* Friends to receive God as personal Saviour
* To be raptured.. =)[1 Thessalonians 4:13-17]
*MY WISH LIST*
#1___ 3 storey cage for my hamster
#2___ Mango Soft Cream Wax from Foodskin*
#3___ 4G ipod NANO
#4___ SE [w580i] or [w660i] or [w850i] or N95
#5___ new leather sling bag
#6___ piano/keyboard
#7___ Amplifier for eletronic drum set
#8___ Digital metronome
#9___ Creative Prodikeys DM
#10___ DSC-W50/S Cyber-shot W Series